hello it's me from 2002
hi.
im tired and lost and frustrated. it's like im a kid again. anyways this is my first post here, nice to meet you all. tomorrow i'll go to the mall and drink expensive coffee I can't afford, while under the scrutinizing eyes of my remaining parent.
i wish she would support my decisions instead of shooting them down. I know they're not the best decisions, I know this path I "chose" is not comfortable... but i don't have anything else. i dont know how to do anything else, it's all I have.
she doesn't understand. she thinks I can force myself to do things just because they're practical and the best option but unfortunately I'm not wired like that. and I'm the one who's really getting fucked over by this character flaw, not her. she doesn't seem to even understand how much I understand how fucked I am bc of that.
anyways. that's it for today. hope you're having a good one.